*la la la*

1. I can't quite decide if I'm annoyed regarding the insidiousness of Twitter and how it's so important and the vague argument that I need to find out what my favorite celebrity is doing in the local grocery store or if I should just go with the flow and enjoy the inanity of it all and possibly sign up for an account myself. (ah, new technology. I have such a weird relationship with you. And usually I'm a day and a dollar short when it comes down to it).

2. Our new Harlequin books arrived! I've been reading these damn books since I was 11 or 12. They can be ridiculous and over the top and bad, but they are also a great way to wile away an afternoon and you don't have to think too hard about anything other than Boy A getting together with Girl A. Also, some of my favorite cliches/kinks come from these crazy books. ;)

3. I love the overlap with fic and posts and LJ friends that comes from being a multi-fandom whore. Seriously, people, I'm rarely bored because of this fact.

4. I have piles upon piles of just plain ole' stuff in my room at the moment and I honestly don't know how to organize it. But organize it, I must. *sigh*

*trying to figure out what to do about our website. been looking up html info and deciding about hosting sites and figuring out how to get my ftp program to work. I haven't done anything with our website in a very long time and I've forgotten what to do. ckdutchess is helping me and we are both attempting to make this work, (because we both really want to start writing again and this will also give me something to do, in between the job applications).

*my parents need to stop planning vacations and just do things on the spur of the moment. My mom broke her foot, right before their trip to Iceland, and now my father has an issue with his eye and its retina and thus their trip to the beach has been delayed a day. Hopefully, the doctor will give him the okay to go on the trip tomorrow, but more importantly, I hope that they will be able to figure out what happened over the weekend and that there is a treatment for it.

*the new HP movie starts tomorrow! *woot* don't know when I'll be able to see it, but it should be soon. also, Dan Radcliffe is ridiculously charming in his recent interviews and I'm happy to see that he's grown up to be a truly interesting, smart, down-to-earth, guy.

*my mom rightly pointed out that my life must be a little sad boring at the moment, if the thing I'm most excited about is our harlequin romance book order arriving soon. and I have to admit that most of my days, as of late, have been kind of all over the place. also, the stress is building again and that's another reason I need to be more diligent about my writing. It's one of the only things that helps.

*in other news...pining!spencer in brendon/spencer fics makes me happy, I'm ridiculously excited about the current kyle/fish storyline on One Life to Live, and I can't wait until the second season of Merlin starts.

For sunsetmog. Because your band broke your heart this week and I wanted to do something.

I started this a few weeks ago, and I had to change a few things to make it work post-breakup, (I honestly couldn't write it any other way). But, I hope it makes sense and that I was able to capture Brendon and Spencer in the best possible way. Also, this is completely unbetaed and I apologize for any crazy mistakes.

Title: Finding The Rhythm Inside The Insanity
Rating: PG-13, for slight language
Fandom: PATD/P!ATD
Pairing: Brendon/Spencer (friendship, pre-slash)


( Spencer started rubbing Brendon’s back, his fingertips digging in slightly, something that was both maddening and calming at the same time. )

For skylark97. She's had a couple of bad days recently and I thought this might cheer her up.

(And, Rach? I have no idea where this came from, but I hope you enjoy it. It's slightly random).

Also, this is completely unbetaed. Please let me know if there are any huge mistakes. Thanks. :)

Untitled
OMC/OMC
PG-13/slightly R-ish

( He tries not to react to the drag of lips across his cheek. )

Oh, this week...

The bad:

1. PATD broke up. *sigh* And I was just really getting into them and watching all of these clips and listening to all of these interviews and now it's a little...strange? I don't know. I don't hate any of the guys, (and *oooh boy* do I see two different camps forming over this and it's going to be crazy), and I wish them well, but it's a little odd for me to see where I'm going as a fan, especially since I didn't really know who the hell PATD was a couple of months ago.

2. Someone got a hold of my debit card number and ran up charges through Western Union, (ermm, I don't know why either), and now I have to get another card and file forms to dispute the charges and try and make sure that things will be safer in the future for my bank account. The sad thing is that with debit/bank cards, there really are no safety measures. *grumble*

3. Missing some of my shows, (for various reasons), and feeling slightly guilty for worrying about it in the first place. There are more important things to be concerned about, yet...

4. I still don't have a job. And my positive, "yah, I can totally find a new job soon!", attitude is starting to fray around the edges. (Having half of my remaining funds stolen out of my bank account probably didn't help).

The good:

1. Pictures from the Gossip Girl set, with shots of Blair and Chuck holding hands. It just makes me feel all squishy inside. :)

2. Brendon Urie's voice - guh! Skip ahead to the 0:47 second mark and then be amazed until the end.
This is why even if Brendon and Spencer decide to make some weird hip-hop/country/electronica album, I'll probably still listen to it, because of that man's voice. (*cough* please, oh, please do not make some strange hip-hop/country/electronica album, guys!).

3. Finding more new music to fall in love with, (and be slightly embarrassed by), and discovering new fic/videos to go along with this new fandom and, maybe, I'll finally stop being cryptic about this thing I've been invested in this past week, but that day isn't today. Still trying to decide how to build up to talking about it. But, it makes me happy, so that works for me right now. :)

4. The new Harry Potter movie comes out next week! *woot* Can't wait.

I'm beginning to realize that I'm the kiss of death with new fandoms this year.

*sniff*

So, Panic at the Disco broke up.

Fuck.

I was actually looking forward to seeing what they would do with a new album, and maybe, eventually seeing them on tour. But, it's the not the same when two of the band members have left to do other things, leaving the other two band members to...do what, exactly? I don't know. Questions will be answered in the next few weeks, I'm sure, but I feel bad for the hardcore fans, (sunsetmog, I know this is not what you wanted to find out about, with July being stressful enough already for you), and if I had tickets to see them on tour this summer, I would be a little pissed that it won't be the whole band now.

And the sad part is that I'm more worried about whether or not the guys are still friends, (I felt this way after *NSYNC broke up, and I know it's not rational, since I don't know any of these guys personally, but I can't help but get invested in how bands interact with each other, on and off stage. Music always stands by itself, but it's also fun to make connections based on the relationships of the band members).

And the new fandom I've been stumbling around in the past few days? Oh, maybe I shouldn't even bother. I'll just ruin it with all the bad juju I have going on. *cough*

Happy 4th of July for those who celebrate it. :)

If you were able to have a long/three day weekend, hope you are relaxing and having fun. I'm getting over a wicked sinus headache that has lingered for a few days, but I'm excited that I'll be seeing w0rdplait tomorrow and that I'll be able to go to the movies with my family as well.

Also, I may have discovered some youtube videos/interviews that are eating my soul and have been a complete distraction the past few hours. More about that at another time, (I'm such a geek. That's all I'll say). ;)

My dad's flight was originally supposed to come in around 10:30 tonight. Now it's scheduled to arrive at about 1:30 AM.

*sigh*

Gotta love flying and delayed flights and busy airports. *joy*

I just hope we can all function tomorrow. I feel bad for my sister who has to get up early for work and will also be working an event tomorrow night as well.

Good times. ;)

July has to be less busy/crazy, right? I truly planned on updating more than I have this month, but my real life has been all over the place lately.

My dad is coming home tomorrow and I'm excited about that. I may drag him to go see Star Trek this week, (nope, I totally do not have an ulterior motive for that. Nope. Not at all), and we have a growing list of things we want my dad to look at/work on/go to, while he's home in July. I just hope he'll be able to relax and spend as much time as he can with my mom.

It's been hard to focus the past few days and I'm feeling a little out of sorts. I just hope that I'll start to feel better soon and be able to get back on track. Because I have a ton of emails to send and comments to respond to, along with a bunch of organizing to finish on my computer and in my room.

Merlin is totally my crack show o' the moment. I adore it and I got my mom and sister to watch the first two episodes last night on NBC. They thought it was cute too and I hope it does well over the summer. I have a million meta thoughts about the show and I may actually write them down at some point, (at least that's the plan). It's just been a little nuts with all the cleaning and chores and running of errands and going to appointments this past week. And we have a bunch of things to take care of this week as well. My mom goes back to the doctor on Thursday for more X-rays on her foot and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that her foot is on its way to piecing itself back together. My dad is also coming back home next Tuesday and I can't wait to see him. He deserves some time off, (he basically works 18 hour days, 7 days a week, while he's overseas), and I hope he'll be able to relax while he's in Florida.

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Went to the eye doctor today and he confirmed that my rosacea has probably affected my eyes and that I need to use an antibiotic eye drop for about a week, along with regular eye drops, and to start taking fish oil/flaxseed oil pills. When I was doing research about rosacea and how it could affect other parts of your face, a lot of the articles did bring up the fact that doctors were starting to recommend that patients take fish oil/flaxseed oil pills to help with the various symptoms, including when it spreads to the eyes. I've been meaning to start taking those pills, (*eh* I suppose I'm a little lazy), for other health reasons, so now I kind of have to do it, if it will help with all the problems I've had with my eyes these past few months.

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Downloaded a couple of trial FTP programs and am attempting to figure out how to work with html coding again. *cough* I've definitely forgotten a few things. Need to look up some easy html coding guides online, because I really do want to start using our website again. It'll give me an incentive to finish up the multitude of stories I have sitting on my hard drive.

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It's been kind of a random week. *heh*

Still working on my job search, (and I'm actually happy about my resume, for once!), and my mom is starting to feel a little bit better, (her foot is still healing, but the upper respiratory infection is not as bad as last week). She decided not to go on her trip to Iceland, (disappointing, but she figured that it wouldn't be a very fun trip, if she could barely get around), and my dad will just be coming home for his entire vacation now, (which will be nice).

And, along with everything else, I've been sucked into another fandom. I'm a tad late with this particular fandom, but I don't care. I've seen a couple of episodes on that lovely, crack-addicted video sharing site I love so much, and I've read a couple of LJ opinion/review posts about the show and I may have read a few fics as well. I'm ridiculously excited that the show is going to start airing here, next week, and I'm looking forward to eventually catching up with the rest of the episodes soon.

oh, like I need another BBC show to get hooked on, but, dammit, Merlin is fucking addictive. I understand now what all the fuss has been about. Any recs, thoughts, opinions about the show are greatly encouraged. I know I'm a little late coming to the table, so I have a lot of catching up to do.

So, in between my moments of doubt and slight depression lately, Star Trek, Panic at the Disco, and now Merlin, are making me happy.

(It's probably a good thing that when I get stressed/depressed/worried, I latch onto new fandoms, and not say, excessive drinking or sleeping with a bunch of random people. Yah, it's really all good in the long run. *cough*).

I saw Twilight for the first time last night.

Oh, it was even more cheesetastically bad than I expected.

Thank you, movie!!

It was hilarious watching it with my sister, (I honestly don't think I'll be able to see Robert Pattinson again without shouting out "Look, it's the Creepy, Sparkly Stalker!"), and I may have lost it when my sister turned to me, about halfway through the movie, and asked, "Why is Bella in love with Edward again?" Both my sister and I have never read the books, (and the only reason why I know anything about this series is because I read cleolinda's recaps of the books), and trying to explain what I did know made the whole experience a lot of fun. I think my sister actually liked it because of the whole vampire/werewolf/fantasy aspect, but I don't think she took it very seriously either.

I don't think I can bring myself to watch the sequel in a movie theater, but I'll probably check it out once it's on DVD. Just because.

I wasn't feeling well last night, so, thank you Twilight, for making me feel a little better. ;)

Yesterday, I

1) watched the new Star Trek movie again,
2) watched The Wrath of Khan for the first time, and
3) my mom bought me a ST glass from Burger King.

And thus Thursday was a utterly fabulous day.

( some random comments about the new movie, plus some interesting connections between it and the WOK )

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One of these days my posts won't just be about Star Trek, but for now that's the one pop culture type thing that is making me happy. All of my TV shows, and their respective season finales, have been full of fail this year, (with some rare exceptions).

( What the hell was that? A brief look at Prison Break, Ugly Betty, Gossip Girl, etc. )

I'm not even going to get into what's happened with my soaps. *ugh* I'm looking at you, ABC, you, lazy, misogynistic hacks. Guiding Light, (you know, the cancelled soap), has been fun as hell to watch though and I plan on sticking with it, whether it goes to another cable network or is finally cancelled all together in September. Olivia/Natalia, Dinah/Shayne and Bill/Lizzie are totally my crack at the moment. :)

Today, I wanted to wish my very dear and fabulous friend, skylark97, a Happy Birthday. I hope you have a relaxing day, Rach, (and if you have to work, I hope it's not too stressful), and that you get everything you've wished for in the upcoming year. I love you and miss you and always wish you all the best. *hugs* :)



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I saw Star Trek in the IMAX theater last night and it was pretty cool on the bigger screen, (and, yes, it was an actual IMAX screen. It wasn't one of those theaters that tried to pass it off as an IMAX movie). Seeing the cast in higher definition and everything was lovely and I also saw a few other details that I missed in my first few viewings. I saw it with my Hallmark friends and it was nice to see it with people who were just as excited as I was about the whole thing.

(There are other things going on in my life right now, but I'm still so excited about this movie, I can't help but babble about it. That will change though, I promise). :)

Not quite sure where to start, since I loved almost everything about this movie, so I apologize for the randomness of the following review.

( Star Trek 2009 movie review - filled with a ton of random comments and vague Dr. Who connections )

I've saved a bunch of ST icons and I tried really hard to upload ones that weren't too spoilery, but as soon as a little more time has gone by, I'll upload a couple that reflect one of my favorite parts of the movie.

If you haven't seen Star Trek, you totally should. It's just all kinds of fun. :)

*Plan on seeing Star Trek again tomorrow night, (and more than likely will see it one more time next weekend with my friends), and I couldn't be happier. This movie has taken over my brain and I'm coming up with fic ideas and counting down until I can own it on DVD, etc. I'll post a more detailed review tomorrow night, because there were a few details I forgot about from my first viewing and everything will be fresh in my mind after I see it on Monday.

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I was going to talk about a couple of other things, but they have completely flown out of my head and I'll work on remembering what those things were for a later post.

(I totally blame the new ST cast).

*snerk*

Just got back from seeing Star Trek.

Oh, damn, I am totally seeing that movie again in the theater.

My initial expectations were pretty shallow low for ST. They were:

1. Chris Pine has to just, you know, be there. And if he chooses to go without a shirt at some point, that's fine by me.

2. There has to be some cool, "blow some shit up", space battles.

So, both of my expectations were definitely met and everything else about the movie was just a fabulous side of awesome and so...fucking...cool. :)

Everyone fit their characters so perfectly, the humor and angst was balanced, and the fact that the whole movie basically takes place ( cut for major spoilery observations )

More tomorrow once I get some sleep and have more time to compose my thoughts. But, I HIGHLY recommend Star Trek and you should see it as soon as possible. You don't need to be an original ST fan at all to enjoy it. It's just a damn great film, period.

*woot*

I finally bought my new Macbook yesterday and I couldn't be happier. Once I figured out how my new external hard drive worked, I was able to transfer over my old files and everything appears to be working. I'm taking in my old computer to the Apple store today to be re-formatted, (plus it needs a new battery), and the plan is to send it to my cousin in Texas.

It's just so shiny and there are so many wonderful new features and I can't wait to explore it more when I get home after my appointment!! :)

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And on a randomy-type side note, I totally blame sunsetmog for the two new songs I have in my iTunes library now. *heh* I knew that when I read your Panic at the Disco stories, that something like this would happen. And the funny thing is I thought I hadn't heard any of their songs, but then I started clicking on some of the listed songs in the iTunes store and I kept finding ones I had heard before on the radio.

*cough*And I may be going to Target this afternoon and buying their latest album. Possibly. *cough*

Yah, I totally blame you, Mel. *hugs*

*Starting a new diet this week and I'm a little worried I won't be able to stick with it. But the main issue I have with my weight/health is the fact that I don't exercise at all and I really do believe that I would start to see major improvements in that area if I just, you know, started an exercise program. (I honestly want to feel better and look better and I know that it's up to me to make that happen, so...)

*This month has been crazy busy for my family and it's been a little odd how much has been going on. Not bad, per se, but I'm not used to doing so much in a month, (which is a sad testament of my current life, I must say...*snort*). I'm just happy about accomplishing actual tasks, that are producing results, and I hope I can maintain this flow of activity into the coming summer months.

*Will probably be purchasing a new laptop next week. *woot* I have to be good about paying off the credit card I'm using for part of the purchase, but other than that, I'm really excited about the possibilities with the new Macbook I'll be getting. I also plan on re-formatting my current laptop, replacing the battery, and then sending it to my cousin in Texas, who has done such a great job in school this year and deserves a gift. Because, aside from the slightly crappy keychain issues, (which will be resolved with the re-formatting), and the requirement of a new battery, my laptop is still in pretty good condition. I hope he'll like it. :)

*I'm kind of excited about an appointment I had today. My friend from work recommended this small nutrition/fitness place, where you can set up a personal fitness and diet plan, (for a pretty decent price), and work with the owners/trainers at your own pace or schedule. I really felt comfortable talking to the two owners/trainers and I'm happy with the diet plan we set up. I need structure/rules when it comes to maintaining a consistent diet and exercise regiment and, once it becomes part of my everyday routine, I do stick with it. I've just been feeling so *blah* lately and I know if I get in shape, I'll start to feel a lot better. *keep your fingers crossed*

*It looks like I'll have to attend another training session for the adult literacy program. There are no people on the waiting list for the libraries near my house, so I'm going to learn the ESOL portion of the literacy program and, hopefully, there will be more students available on that list for my area. I truly want this program to work out, so I'm gonna work as hard as I can to make sure it happens.

*So, along with my meetings with a career counselor and my new volunteer program, I've also signed up for a class that deals with setting goals, how to achieve them, and working with stress in your life. My other friend at work recommended this particular class and it sounds like it would be beneficial in the long run. It starts next week and I'm hoping that it will work out for me in the end.

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It feels kind of great to actually be making the phone calls and attending the meetings and actually doing something for once. I think the fact that I will soon be entering another decade of my life is pushing me a little more than usual this year. ;)